I'm not okay (but I will be)

Saying Yes to Surrendering

I never want to give the impression that I have a perfect life, but I do feel a deep responsibility to stay positive and uplifting, setting the tone for our community.

But today, I am not okay.

A couple of months ago, I invited you to join me on a journey of saying yes. Yes to creative courage, bold pivots, fierce faith, and daring decisions. Yes to one small step each day that moves us closer to creative success. And most importantly, yes to God’s plan—relinquishing control and trusting Him with our lives.

I haven’t been saying yes—at least not in the way I envisioned. Not daily, and certainly not consistently.

I came to this realization just a few days ago. It all came to a head when I spiraled into the thought that I might never have children because I might never finish graduate school.

Now, to help you understand how my mind got to this point, there are a few things you should know:

1. I overthink E V E R Y T H I N G.

2. I am a first-year Master’s student at Johns Hopkins University.

3. …